Thursday, 28 May 2009

Those tiny, soft, pinkish feet

My little angel was born on the 20th of feb this year. I was not so lucky to be present beside my wife in her moment of pain. That is one thing I would always lament though I was not the one to be at fault. My baby was to be born a week later, but apparently decided on herself, “enough is enough”. “Why is my mama make me not see the world?”and ta dah, she came out to the world, surprising not just her mom, but the entire her Family to be.Her Poor Papa, that is me, was left off guard, but managed to squeeze into the first available plane flying malluland( kerala) bound. And as the legend goes, crash landed right into the maternity ward of the Baby Memorial Hospital in Calicut.
It was a Friday and Fridays being a Holiday, I was delightfully hogging on home delivered Masala Dosa from Sangeetha Restaurant, when my Father-in-law dropped the jaw dropping news.My wife was taken to the hospital in the morning and soon after, her labor started. Just about half hour into her labor and Ms. Ananya, the Miss Beautiful eyes and Miss photogenic, as you see in the photograph was born.

The first instance I laid my eyes on her, it was quite a love at first sight. I almost saw her wink at me. I heard her say, "oh papa, you are so good. Ummah, I love you." I wasn't allowed to take her in my arms, my policing wife instructed me to shower first. I reluctantly agreed. But I was allowed to hug her (my wife)and her smile made me realise what I missed all these months.

I was given the task of changing the diapers and believe I did a good job at that. As my wife converses with the baby, "pretty nice life you have baby, drink, sleep, shit and pee. Even royals didn’t have so much easy life".
What followed were indeed sleepless nights, as the baby followed its hullabaloo-"day time sleep and night time awake". There were nights when I had to hand carry the baby the whole night, as my wife appeared very tired and sleepy. Thinking about it now, the naughty and mischievous expression the baby carried while making me carry her in my arms, sleeplessly, brings a smile on my face.
Mentioned below is the poem I wrote, AHEM. The inspiring moments were when I saw her for the first time.The baby was busy feeding herself and i almost heard her say, "papa? You can wait. I am busy now." I touched her tiny, soft, pinkish feet and it moved, giving me a soft kick. That was the start of the bond, between this love struck Papa and his LIL ANGEL.

Those tiny, soft, pinkish feet

It enthused when I felt,
Those tiny, soft, pinkish feet
Then it stirred my spirit,
Like a staff stir a mystical
It cried and beamed whenever,
I looked at its face and light
Calmed, when in my tender wings
It wet my garb and I tainted
But felt its warmth so unsoiled
It made me befall puerile,
And I forget I became immense
I came back to being little,
And fooled around with it, like it
It looked into me and ,
I Felt,
I was seeing a divinity in it



oh my god !!!
u aint no dog after all - considering, most papa dogs leave their kids .........
congratulations !!!!

btw , thnx for giving my blog a read , but dont worry
i write other non gay blogs too

geese-- i am afraid of commenting now , ppl will go only to the girlyblog ...........i think it is much more fun though

give ananya a hug from my side .......
she is adooooooorable !!!

Anonymous said...

Hey it is really interesting, especially the poem. I should thank you for indirectly helping me explore blogging.

P said...

she is adorable :)
she back here?

AnjuGandhi said...


ZiLliOnBiG said...

@PHOTOGENIC: you can continue calling me dog. Its ok, as long as dogs dont have a problem.

@Anon:Thanks Deeya. Blogging is not very different from marketing.

@P:Thanks. She is and i miss her soooo much. She aint back. she is joining me in aug or sep, as soon as i manage her Visa.

@anju: Thanks a ton. I am still basking in the warmth of fatherhood. it feels great.TC:)))

Sonja Chandrachud said...

thanks!! Your blog's really wonderful!! loved meeting Ananya...and the poem, zimply marvellous as the Mallus wud say!!! have three kids myself and lived in Dubai for a while on Al Rigga Street...u with Publigraphics? I used be in advertising myself...will be following ur blog for sure!!

Rajlakshmi said...

how cute!!! such lovely post...
give my love to Ananya ... you must be a proud papa :)

Chriz said...

Anu is indeed a blessing...

She is indeed an angel..

more blogs on her would be great

Sucharita Sarkar said...

What a little angel you are blessed with. Children sure are "divinity".

Ms. Neha Gandhi said...

awww soo cute...i can see u brimming with pride on seeing ur lovely angel...

she'll be happy to read all this that her papa has written for her when she grows up :)

ZiLliOnBiG said...

@Sonja:Thanks a ton. Coming from you, its a great appreciation. I have already started following your blog. Keep blogging.

@Rajlakshmi: Thanks buddy. Shall drop in your blog. keep blogging.

@Chriz: Thanks buddy.Defenetly more blogs will follow.

ZiLliOnBiG said...

@Sucharita:Thanks ,Its once in a lifetime experience. feels greta being a dad.

@Neha:Yes. i hope so. unless she feels, her papa cant write, akin to saying "papu cant dance saala."

Anonymous said...

Ananya is an angel :-)
she would be almost 3 months now! So, is the girl turning over? I remember my nephew started trying from when he was 47 days old!
Those tiny, soft pinkish feet! Touching them feels like heaven. Baby smell is the best fragrance :-)

ZiLliOnBiG said...

Thanks Remya, Ananya says thanks to you.:)

The abstract scientist said...

Hey congratulations on becoming a father!

Santanu Sinha Chaudhuri said...

You have a lovely little girl, a true angel. May she grow into a beauty, and be immensely successful in whatever she does.

Your post also took me back in time by 30 years, when my daughter was like Ananya. And what you wrote worked a magic in me. I realized that if I could give my daughter the same kind of unconditional love that I gave her 30 years ago, if I could stop expecting anything from her, just like 30 years ago, then we wouldn't get into the little tiffs that we have once in a way.

You didn't intend to say so, but your post gives me a sense that for a father, the daughters should never grow up!

Thanks very much.

Satans Darling™ said...

She is an angel! Congratulations!

ZiLliOnBiG said...

abstract:thanks man. it feels great.

ZiLliOnBiG said...

@santanu: iam overwhelmed that my post made you remember your daughter and go back 30 years. I am so glad hearing it.take care:))

ZiLliOnBiG said...

@satan's dahlin: I hate to call you that. look at you, you such angelic face you should be called 'gods own resident angel', but i know its that modest thing.Thanks a ton.

Anonymous said...

So cute!!!She is an Angel.All the best Papa....the LIFE has only begun.... ;-)

Zeba Talkhani said...

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. You are a daddy! I never knew that. Awesome kid. Very very pretty!

Guria said...

Ananya is blessed! :)