poignant memoirs !!!!!!

Since long i have wanted to write this. This didn’t start yesterday or the day before. In fact, this has been happening to me as long as i can remember; the mistreatment and hatred people have shown me. It was so bad that I never knew what real love felt like. People made fun of me behind my back, thinking I am not noticing. I knew it. It felt bad. No, i was brokenhearted; i cried. But i still loved them. They even called my girlfriend a bitch. I didn’t mind, I just moved on.

I am an orphan. I don’t know who my parents are. They just dumped me when i was little and tiny. I wish i could see my mother once again. I was so small to remember anything about her. I have heard from my elder friends that she was beautiful. She was also intelligent. But not intelligent enough to make me a part of her. Yet, i don’t hate her, i never can. If i have another chance with life, i would want to be born to her.

Why are you treating me like this? Why am i looked at as a lowly creature? Why doesn’t people understand that i am an individual and i need to be treated with love and respect? I too have self respect and dignity. Why is the whole world conspiring against me?

The only time i felt loved was when that old gentleman saw me in distress and came to me and patted my back. I felt loved. He got me food. He gave me so much love, that i hadn’t got ever in my life. he took me home. Life seemed to change; i got food and shelter, but it was not what almighty had planned for me.

I saw him being stuffed inside that coffin. People who had never cared if he lived, were seen showing-off their love for him, when he died. Isn’t that the man's biggest hypocrisy? I didn’t know what was happening to him. The fact was no one bothered to tell me, it was as if telling me “that was none of my business”. I wanted to scream, “The business was only mine”, but i couldn’t. I was the only one he had, when he lived that is. And once again i was without an address. I moved around, ate what i got, slept on the pavement. Like street dogs. Not that i was any better.

I cried a lot. I missed him all the very much, and he came in my dreams. I went to that house he lived, only to know that it was snatched by his relatives. I had no place there. I was shouted at and thrown out. What do i do but to cry, he was the only one and his love was the only love i ever got.

Then one day, i met her. I thought, this is it !!! Like they say; “Every dog has a day”-I thought my day too have come. She was the most beautiful thing i had ever seen. Probably she was as beautiful as my mother. My mind kept telling me, “ She is yours, She is made for me.....Go idiot...go... Make her yours...”.I dreamt of her, i slept with her in mind, ate with her in mind....i thought she is the only good thing that will ever happen to me.

But!!!...Alas!!!...my love!!!...my life!!!.....my everything!!.... she Dumped me. I saw with my own eyes. I felt i would want to turn blind, rather than to see such a sight, ever. She was holding this guys hand, neck to neck and walking past me. As if I never existed. As if I was some GHOST. A supernatural spirit. I thought she was my only solace, my only love, but i was so wrong. I was so wrong. Sigh!

Cant blame her completely. His body was better than mine. He was stronger than me and better built. I was ever an orphan , always undernourished . How will i impress a beauty like her. I cried a lot. I was desperate. I was heart broken. I wept for weeks.I thought she was mine, but it took few moments to shatter that myth. Not any more.....not anymore!!!!( gets emotional and cries)

“Why me?, I ask you, why me?” Why do i lose everything before even making it mine. *SIGH!!!!*

But i will not give up. I am a survivor. I am a fighter. I will continue to fight. I may not become someone great. I may not mark myself in this world. But i will continue my fight. Only because i don’t know to give-up. I simply don’t know!!!

But there seems to be some light now, at the other side of my life-tunnel. The people who have just moved into my neighborhood, seem to like me. And boy, their young beautiful sister.*sigh*. She is HOT. She has such a great body . She has the sexiest legs i have seen with this eyes, i tell you. She has started showing the signs, the other day she winked at me. Boy!!! And i made the only sound i knew to make, “Bhow, Bhow “. I kept wobbling my tail, and she joined me.

And i am making my plans to live with her, ever after, like these humans say, “ lived happily, ever after”. Stupid humans, Including the one who is writing this!!!! I hate them !!!!!.

An autobiography,

Jimmy-the Pomeranian.

P.S: Inspired( not copied) by Aparna, A’la Bappi lahiri and Anu Malik ishtyle.

P.P.S: I know this isnt really a funny post. if you want ROFWL kinda read click here, i wrote this when i was a struggling blogger ( not that i am better now),something like struggling actors.